Hump Day!!

The week is almos over and my favorite day is almost here (Thursday). It was a busy day in the world of a trauma hospital. No interesting cases today just the same ole swallowing issues and cognitive impairments.

Today was a pretty good day for me eating wise, no cheating except for I did make two turkey wraps on wheat tortillas, in hindsight I should have had just one. Today was my coworker's birthday so there was cake for the occasion and I said no to the cake! It wasn't that hard, I just didn't put myself in the situation to be tempted. The cake did look damned good though.

A mantra that I have been using since yesterday is Mind over Matter. It has helped me in my weak moments when I have wanted to stray. I remind myself that it really is mind over matter and it kept me from eating that cake and going to the gym today for the 9th day in a row! Hot damn!

It's a numbers game

I so meant to post yesterday with my weight, but I just got tied up. So first things first here's my Monday weigh in:

I'm claiming this again, I will never be over 300 lbs again!!!

Yesterday I met with a personal trainer, Kimberly and I signed up for 2x/week for 6 months. We did a session yesterday before we talked about prices and it was pretty good. The sessions are only 30 minutes, but she says she can do a lot in 30 and she proved it to me. The PT sessions are not cheap at X3 but I already knew that. I also knew I would most likely sign up, so I shift some money around before our session. Well it's more like I decided to defer my student loans for 6 months. I figure my 50k+ in student loans aren't disappearing anytime soon, so what is 6 months of deferment vs. investing in bettering my life. I'm happy with my choice. On top of that I will be working wih a nutritionist (included in the package) to help me with food intake. I meet with Caroline the nutritionist next Wednesday, in the meantime I have to keep a food journal. I totally suck ass at keeping up with those, but since I'm making a significant investment in bettering my life, I'm going to have to get with the program.

Today was my annual woman's check up and as much as I hate those, it was also with a new doctor. I got great recommendations about her, but it still doesn't ease the fact that cold slimy forceps are going up your cooch as well as fingers. Gross! Anywho, they took my blood pressure and I was so happy with the number! It dropped a lot! In October I was 166/86, not a good number at all and today I was at 110/80. Talk about happy dancing!!! I refuse to take meds at 31 for something I can help.

I have officially worked out 8 days in a row and plan on going tomorrow. H.A.M!!!

H.A.M!!!

I went H.A.M this weekend with my workouts! In case you don't know H.A.M means, it means hard as a mothaf*****!!! On Saturday I went to X3 and then went to my Zumba class and then today I went to the gym did a 20minute interval on the stairmill, 30 minutes of weights and ended with a 15 minute mile on the treadmill. Oh but it doesn't end there...went to X3 after that!! Now don't get me wrong 10 minutes into the class, I was wondering what the hell I was doing but I pushed through! So yes I went H.A.M.!

Congrats goes out to the Dallas Mavericks, because they went H.A.M in the NBA Finals! I won't lie, I'm not a big NBA follower, but I did watch the series and I'm very proud that my old city brought home a championship.

Anywho I'm going to list some goals for myself this week:
1. Post current pics of where I am now
2. Take my measurements
3. Make a weight loss chart for the blog
4. Workout 2x/day at least 3 days this week
5. Add more pics to my blog
6. Make goals

Stay tuned b/c tomorrow I meat with a trainer at X3 and I might be making a big decision.

I'm Back...Again!

I know that it is true for me that when, I am slacking on my blog or not reading blogs, I am somewhere enjoying something fried and something sweet (sometimes the foods are both, lol). As of Monday Tuesday, I have gotten my act together. I have been to the gym 3 days in a row! One day I even went to two different gyms. The countdown to DR is getting shorter and I will be at a least 20 lbs lighter. I'm claiming it!

I just have to internalize that so much of this weight loss journey is depending on what you eat. Outside of not working out for 2 weeks prior to this week. I have been working out consistently. I got down to 294.8 and then when I woke up out of the food coma I was 308. Damn!! Now I'm at 302.6, the same weight I was at the end of February. That's 3 months of bullshitting and it's time to get off the pot! Really...

This weekend is going to pretty laid back. I'm going to an art exhibit tonight and I work tomorrow, ughh. After that straight chillin! I plan to get some working out in, but that's not new.

Well there are few things that I like...

I am here on a Saturday night with an itch to go out, but the laziness to keep me in the house. I know I'm going to get out and do a few things next weekend so I'm not so pressed about it. I do wish there was a movie that I was interesting in renting and watching at home, but I guess I'm not in the mood.

This week I did get in 4 good days of working out and ate pretty good this week. The scale is still under 300, but I won't really start tracking it until Monday. I have 3 months until DR and I have to get it right!!

So this has been a good week on the compliment front. I got 2 comments at work today about my slimming down and it does feel good when other people notice your hard work. When I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today, I was able to see some positive changes in body. My legs are getting smaller and so are my sides and I think my humps are shaping up. Now the last comment can be wishful thinking, but I'm pretty sure it's trying to do something. So on one hand while I see the positive things, I also see the not to positive things...Cottage cheese thighs, the fact I have no definition in my knees, my huge ass arms, and the stretch mark road map on my stomach, to name a few. While I was thinking about these things, I was reminded about an article that I read. It said people should identify the things they do like about their body and think about that. So now I am going to tell you what I like about myself:

1. My feet...Yes they are flat as a board, but I think I have pretty toes, which stay manicured, so I think it overshadows the fact that I have no arch.

2. My breastesses! LOL Yes they have a little hang time going, but they are still full and look pretty damn good if I don't say so myself!

Me between 320 and 325 lbs.

3. My smile! I have always been complimented on my smile and if you look hard enough I have dimples. It's a crooked smile, but I think it photographs well :)

4. My overall body! I feel that I have been lucky that I didn't have the worst shape in the world. Yes there is no reason that a woman of 5'8 should peak at a weigth of 350 lbs, but I am fortunate that my weight went everywhere and not concentrated in one area. I've always thought I had a decent shape with a lot of layers. :)

Me at 323 lbs.


So I guess I have a few things that I do like about my body and I just have to keep striving to finding more!

I think the 'Operation DR' plan will be up tomorrow night and become functional on Monday!

I feel good!!!

Happy Thursday!!!

It's almost the weekend and I.can't.wait!!! I have no major plans but I do have to work, clean up and do my hair, but that's all on Saturday and Sunday I'll be free!

This week I have worked out 3 days so far! Two of those I was trying to find excuses not to go, but I did. I did 2 days at my new favorite gym and one at the regular. I have only been going to X3 for a little over 2 weeks and I already feel stronger and dare I say it, I feel like my body is changing!

I went home last weekend and my only goal was not to gain weight! Mission accomplished. I did manage to work out one day and while I did eat a litle off than what I have been doing, I didn't do any major damage! When I was home I got a lot of comments about how I look good and to keep up the work, so that was very motivating, but scary at the same time! It's like people notice a difference and they will expect to keep seeing a difference and if they don't you're obviously failing. Fortunately, for me I'm not going to fail! I'm claiming it. I'm still weighing in at 300, but I vow on my birthday June 2nd when I weigh myself, I will be under 300 and will never be over it again!

I can't believe I will be in the Dominican Republic in 3 months exactly! I can't wait seriously!! The sun, the drinks, the men, Oh my!

I'm going home!!!

I have finally finished packing for my trip back to Houston! I so can't wait! I'm happy I was able to fit everything into carry ons. Maybe my purse can classify as luggage, but as long as I can get it past security checkpoint, I don't mind the luggage being stowed under the plane when I get there! lol

Today I did kickboxing at X3 and it was with an instructor I never had before. He was awesome! He kicked our asses and still came to help when needed with a smile on his face. I most definitely worked it out today and plan on being at his other classes! For dinner I had a tuna sandwich and salad. I almost went got 2 slices of vegetarian pizza slices from a spot down the street, but I decided against it. Also at work we had a catered lunch for hospital week and I opted for the salad and said no to the ice cream. I said 'no' two times when it came to bad food choices. I'm proud of myself now that I think about it. :)

I am a little scared about going home. I still don't have this eating thing down packed and I'm afraid when I get there, I will act a fool. My goal is to really win this weekend and not take 2 steps backwards. I just hate having to lose weight I gained over the weekend. A bad weekend can negate my whole week of doing good. I spoke with my friend about it and she said she has no intentions of derailing her or myself this weekend (She is also on the weight loss mission, but waaaay closer to her goal). So I have packed workout clothes and plan on making the best choices possible when going out to eat, b/c I know that will happen on more than one occasion.

So here is to a good weekend, where I will maintain or lose weight!