When did you know you could do it?

I woke up this morning and just knew that I will get to my goal weight. It was such a definitive thought that it struck me like a ton of bricks. I know I can and will do it! These past 6 months have been full of growing pains and tests of my strength. I am in a season where literally my mind thinks about my health, weight loss and fitness. I mean my systolic blood pressure (the top number) went down 55 mmHg! That is such a huge fucking big deal! I almost got suspended from work in October until I came back on meds b/c my blood pressure was bordering too high.

Outside of blogging, only my closest and dearest friends know the extent of what I am doing and how important it is to me. Co workers and casual friends may know a little, but not much. I am so fortunate that I have been blessed to have friends who will listen to me over and over and over and did I say over again? :-) My roommate jokes that if she leaves me alone too long I might turn our place into a gym! LOL

Has my social life taken a bit of a hit? Maybe. I don't regret it though. Now don't get me wrong, I still make it out, but if I have to choose between going out and being tired vs. getting a good workout in the next day, sometimes the workout wins. Do I talk about it a lot? Probably. But hey those who matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter, that's what they say anyway. This is one of the hardest journey I have ever done in my life. Starting college over again at 23 and going straight through to get my Masters' a little tough. Moving to a new city 3 states over from your home town, yea that was hard. Embarking on a journey to lose the equivalent of a normal sized person your height (140 lbs) that is hella hella hard! I am so lucky to have people on my side. :-)

I so can do this and you better believe I'm sharing this journey with everyone who will read it! I have a busy day today meet with the trainer and have to do my hair and of course get through work ughhh! Happy Friday!