Well there are few things that I like...

I am here on a Saturday night with an itch to go out, but the laziness to keep me in the house. I know I'm going to get out and do a few things next weekend so I'm not so pressed about it. I do wish there was a movie that I was interesting in renting and watching at home, but I guess I'm not in the mood.

This week I did get in 4 good days of working out and ate pretty good this week. The scale is still under 300, but I won't really start tracking it until Monday. I have 3 months until DR and I have to get it right!!

So this has been a good week on the compliment front. I got 2 comments at work today about my slimming down and it does feel good when other people notice your hard work. When I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today, I was able to see some positive changes in body. My legs are getting smaller and so are my sides and I think my humps are shaping up. Now the last comment can be wishful thinking, but I'm pretty sure it's trying to do something. So on one hand while I see the positive things, I also see the not to positive things...Cottage cheese thighs, the fact I have no definition in my knees, my huge ass arms, and the stretch mark road map on my stomach, to name a few. While I was thinking about these things, I was reminded about an article that I read. It said people should identify the things they do like about their body and think about that. So now I am going to tell you what I like about myself:

1. My feet...Yes they are flat as a board, but I think I have pretty toes, which stay manicured, so I think it overshadows the fact that I have no arch.

2. My breastesses! LOL Yes they have a little hang time going, but they are still full and look pretty damn good if I don't say so myself!

Me between 320 and 325 lbs.

3. My smile! I have always been complimented on my smile and if you look hard enough I have dimples. It's a crooked smile, but I think it photographs well :)

4. My overall body! I feel that I have been lucky that I didn't have the worst shape in the world. Yes there is no reason that a woman of 5'8 should peak at a weigth of 350 lbs, but I am fortunate that my weight went everywhere and not concentrated in one area. I've always thought I had a decent shape with a lot of layers. :)

Me at 323 lbs.


So I guess I have a few things that I do like about my body and I just have to keep striving to finding more!

I think the 'Operation DR' plan will be up tomorrow night and become functional on Monday!

I feel good!!!

Happy Thursday!!!

It's almost the weekend and I.can't.wait!!! I have no major plans but I do have to work, clean up and do my hair, but that's all on Saturday and Sunday I'll be free!

This week I have worked out 3 days so far! Two of those I was trying to find excuses not to go, but I did. I did 2 days at my new favorite gym and one at the regular. I have only been going to X3 for a little over 2 weeks and I already feel stronger and dare I say it, I feel like my body is changing!

I went home last weekend and my only goal was not to gain weight! Mission accomplished. I did manage to work out one day and while I did eat a litle off than what I have been doing, I didn't do any major damage! When I was home I got a lot of comments about how I look good and to keep up the work, so that was very motivating, but scary at the same time! It's like people notice a difference and they will expect to keep seeing a difference and if they don't you're obviously failing. Fortunately, for me I'm not going to fail! I'm claiming it. I'm still weighing in at 300, but I vow on my birthday June 2nd when I weigh myself, I will be under 300 and will never be over it again!

I can't believe I will be in the Dominican Republic in 3 months exactly! I can't wait seriously!! The sun, the drinks, the men, Oh my!

I'm going home!!!

I have finally finished packing for my trip back to Houston! I so can't wait! I'm happy I was able to fit everything into carry ons. Maybe my purse can classify as luggage, but as long as I can get it past security checkpoint, I don't mind the luggage being stowed under the plane when I get there! lol

Today I did kickboxing at X3 and it was with an instructor I never had before. He was awesome! He kicked our asses and still came to help when needed with a smile on his face. I most definitely worked it out today and plan on being at his other classes! For dinner I had a tuna sandwich and salad. I almost went got 2 slices of vegetarian pizza slices from a spot down the street, but I decided against it. Also at work we had a catered lunch for hospital week and I opted for the salad and said no to the ice cream. I said 'no' two times when it came to bad food choices. I'm proud of myself now that I think about it. :)

I am a little scared about going home. I still don't have this eating thing down packed and I'm afraid when I get there, I will act a fool. My goal is to really win this weekend and not take 2 steps backwards. I just hate having to lose weight I gained over the weekend. A bad weekend can negate my whole week of doing good. I spoke with my friend about it and she said she has no intentions of derailing her or myself this weekend (She is also on the weight loss mission, but waaaay closer to her goal). So I have packed workout clothes and plan on making the best choices possible when going out to eat, b/c I know that will happen on more than one occasion.

So here is to a good weekend, where I will maintain or lose weight!

I know I can, I know I can, I know I can...

This morning I woke up and felt a renewed spirit, knowing that I will win this war with my weight. I don't know if it's the new gym or what, but I just woke up knowing that I will get down to my goal weight. Maybe it could be attributed to the fact I finally broke through my plateau and I'm under 300 lbs! Yes!!! I'm seeing changes in body and I'm happy about it. The only thing is now I can't get too comfortable b/c I have a long way to go and I don't want the winning of this battle to cause me to let down my defenses. It has happened so many times before.

So yesterday and today I ate pretty good and then did a light workout yesterday and then did my kickbox class today. I really enjoy the class and am proud that I went 4 times last week. I go out of town on Thursday and I'm hoping that I will be able to make it to X3 at least 3 times this week and work out twice while I'm in Houston. If I can do that then I'll be good. It's just this issue with food I still have. I am still a work in progress, and do very well in controlled environments, but when I'm out in the world my decisions aren't the best. I just have to really internalize that I eat to live, not live to eat. It's so much easier said than done esp when you love the taste of food. Anywho, if anyone has any tips please let me know! It's so hard changing a relationship you've had all of your life..

It's the weekend baaabay!!!

So first let me start off by saying I'm doing this post from my phone so forgive me in advance for any mistakes! :) So I started the day very well! I went to X3 and kicked ass and then went to Zumba! Oh yea, your girl got it in. Eating this week, I've done very well. Today I've done pretty well, I'm at a party and I did partake in some potato and pasta salad, but just a spoonful and some chicken salad and crackers. I did say no to the cake, you would be proud Anna Mae, lol. Any who this is my brief check in b/c I'm being rude. Holla!!

It's Hump Day!

So hear I am at work doing my post for today b/c I have been too tired lazy to do it at home and I have a break right now, so why not? So where do I begin? The Charleston trip. It was not a complete fail, by any means, but I didn't win either. If I were in a race with 10 people I would say the way I ate would put me in 5th place. I stayed away from making my own waffles in the morning, even though I wanted to so bad and I even worked out one day. I went wrong with the 2 times I decided to have dessert. I won't lie, they were probably the best desserts I ever tasted. I had a slice of pecan pie with vanilla bean ice cream after my meal of shrimp and grits and I had chocolate cake/brownie with ice cream after a chicken salad sandwich. I don't regret them, but maybe I should have had dessert on just once, esp since it was all in the same day, ouch!

It's Wednesday and I have already gotten in 3 workouts and I plan on going to the gym tonight, so that will make it 2 today! I joined a new gym called X3 Sports and OMG it is kick ass. I did a class and joined and then I went this morning. This is kickboxing on steroids. You wear gloves and have your own bag, and is taught by actual MMA fighters. This morning's class was totally tough but I made it through. My goal is to go to that gym 3x/week in the morning before work and once on the weekend and continue my regular workout routine in the morning. I think that will really amp up my weight loss.

I am starting a challenge today where I write down everything I eat for 7 days. Hopeully this will help me cut down on my mindless eating. I have been working out pretty consistently for about 4 months now and am yo-yoing with my weight and I know it's b/c of my diet. It just sucks that I eat nothing like I used to and workout, but a day or two of cheating will mess things up. So b/c I really really want this weight off, I have to get my eating together. Wish me luck!!