I gotta say it was a good day! (in my Ice Cube voice) lol...But for real it was a good and insightful day. Today one of the nurses brought me a belated birthday gift, the first season of The Cosby Show and some lotions. She remembered me telling a patient that it was one of my all time favorite sitcoms and she bought it. Love it!
Met with a nutritionist at the gym I've been going to and love, X3, today. I thought she was insightful but maybe I was expecting more. She did bring some things to the forefront, that I guess I never thought about such as I'm sabatoging myself when I treat my good number on the scale with a meal. She also mentioned that the reason I may have a hard time losing weight is because I can't visualize myself smaller. I do think she is on to something. I didn't have children and now trying to lose baby weight, I wasn't small and then gained weight in college or during a relationship or whatever. I don't have a reference of, "I want to be the size I was when..." I remember being 205 lbs in 7th grade and 300 lbs at 21. That's all. I have always been overweight. I have been in size 22 and above since...since. There was a brief moment in time when I did get down to a size 20 and maybe some 18's when I lost weight doing Atkins. I got down to a low of 257 lbs, but then I had bread and that was all she wrote. So I know that I don't want to be classified as 'morbidly obese' anymore and I would like to have a healthy and active lifestyle in onederland. One of the problems is that I'm a realist and when I picture that person, she looks older with loose skin and is self conscious about it. I know I have a lot to lose before I even get to that point, but the puckering of my skin in places where I have lost weight does keep it in my mind. So it's an obstacle, but not big enough to stop my efforts. What's a little loose skin compared to adding more years to my life?
So I guess the nutritionist wasn't so bad, but I have to see her a few more times before my mind can really be made up about her.
As far as working out I kicked ass in kickboxing and then did some weights. It was a good day