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Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Today I didn't even have to use my A.K...

I gotta say it was a good day! (in my Ice Cube voice) lol...But for real it was a good and insightful day. Today one of the nurses brought me a belated birthday gift, the first season of The Cosby Show and some lotions. She remembered me telling a patient that it was one of my all time favorite sitcoms and she bought it. Love it!

Met with a nutritionist at the gym I've been going to and love, X3, today. I thought she was insightful but maybe I was expecting more. She did bring some things to the forefront, that I guess I never thought about such as I'm sabatoging myself when I treat my good number on the scale with a meal.  She also mentioned that the reason I may have a hard time losing weight is because I can't visualize myself smaller. I do think she is on to something. I didn't have children and now trying to lose baby weight, I wasn't small and then gained weight in college or during a relationship or whatever. I don't have a reference of, "I want to be the size I was when..." I remember being 205 lbs in 7th grade and 300 lbs at 21. That's all. I have always been overweight. I have been in size 22 and above since...since. There was a brief moment in time when I did get down to a size 20 and maybe some 18's when I lost weight doing Atkins. I got down to a low of 257 lbs, but then I had bread and that was all she wrote. So I know that I don't want to be classified as 'morbidly obese' anymore and I would like to have a healthy and active lifestyle in onederland. One of the problems is that I'm a realist and when I picture that person, she looks older with loose skin and is self conscious about it. I know I have a lot to lose before I even get to that point, but the puckering of my skin in places where I have lost weight does keep it in my mind. So it's an obstacle, but not big enough to stop my efforts. What's a little loose skin compared to adding more years to my life?

So I guess the nutritionist wasn't so bad, but I have to see her a few more times before my mind can really be made up about her.

As far as working out I kicked ass in kickboxing and then did some weights. It was a good day


  1. YAY! I love the Cosby show!
    I also can't visualize myself smaller. I've always been chubby, chunky, fat, plus size, fluffy? Thick?? whatever you wanna call it LOL and I also fear the lose skin, but I also figure that my health is waaaay more important than the physical appearance of my body, so I'll be kicking my own @$$ until I can sustain a healthy body :D

  2. I'm gonna have Ice Cube in my head all day!

    That's interesting what she said about the visualization thing. When I was losing weight I had some pictures of what I wanted to look like on a board. Looked and felt pretty stupid at first, but somewhere along the line you start to realize you are on the way and the motivation you get from that is incredible. I can't recommend it/role modelling enough.

    On the flipside I also think that the reason we don't make the progress we want is often that we haven't found the right eating plan. Yet. So many of these diets are just way too hard to stick with long term!


  3. I hardly remember being a healthy weight. Now, each time I notice (or someone mentions) I'm losing, it's like a new discovery and very exciting. So, I agree it's a matter of perspective, but rather than focusing on what was or what could've been, get excited about the possibilities of the future. Dream a little bit. ;)